a day in the life.

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Fri, 16 Nov 2012 13:11:07 -0800

Sometimes, my fear of God is the only thing that keeps my heart beating.

Sun, 04 Nov 2012 03:23:00 -0800

Batteries not included

Tue, 23 Oct 2012 02:27:22 -0700

It always seems to me that people forget that I am a human being.

Ironically, I would compare myself to a robot. Perhaps at times I may seem like I am always angry or perfectly happy, but I have settings in between those sentiments as well. What directs me are my emotions (insert comments about women being emotional here), and affection from others is the pair of batteries that keeps me alive.

Being Christian, the first natural response would be “the love of God should be enough for you right?” Right. But it’s not. No matter how much I try, I find myself seeking the worldly comfort of sympathetic companions. That isn’t to say that I haven’t turned to God in my times of emotional struggle, but sometimes it’s hard to hear what He’s trying to say to me through all the frustrations of the modern young-adult life. And I don’t think wanting someone to physically hold me and embrace me is a bad thing.

As a robot, I like to take risks. I go out even when I think it might rain and more often that not (seeing as I live in Washington state) I get rained on. Sometimes it’s just a light sprinkle and sometimes it’s a 45mph wind, torrential downpour. Either way, I always forget my umbrella and I get a little water damage on the inside.

My hard, shiny exterior may seem cold and uninviting to most people, but, just like Pinocchio before me, I just want to be a real boy. Well, girl actually. But you get what I mean. When you wish upon a star, nothing happens. You just have to sit on the dusty shelf and wait for those batteries to bring you to life.

Today I feel like an idiot.

Tue, 29 May 2012 13:44:46 -0700

People change. I know that. But I find myself constantly wishing that some people didn’t. That they would always stay the same. Is that selfish? Of course it is. But finally seeing change in action has put me in my place. I’m not God. I’m barely even human. So who am I to get upset about change?

Warning poster in my Chem lab..

Mon, 14 May 2012 08:42:55 -0700

Warning poster in my Chem lab..

;)

Sat, 12 May 2012 10:53:17 -0700

;)

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Tue, 08 May 2012 21:39:11 -0700

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Tue, 08 May 2012 21:38:10 -0700

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Sat, 05 May 2012 16:25:02 -0700

A post about how much of a fatty I am

Sat, 05 May 2012 14:29:53 -0700

I’m writing this post as I am frustratedly (and hungrily) waiting for rice to cook TT

I love eating out. I really do. I mean.. that kinda explains the whole gaining weight thing.. but eating out is EXPENSIVE if you do it more than like once a week. Even then, it definitely takes a toll on my wallet. Ben used to always pay for my meals when we ate out (seriously like 4x a week.. sad I know) so I never REALLY realized how expensive it is to eat out TT I mean, we didn’t always go to somewhere fancy, we at at Chipotle at LEAST twice most weeks (it’s an addiction…….) but a burrito plus a drink plus chips plus guacamole at Chipotle is like $12 D: I still eat out a lot now (thanks to the generous allowance my mom and grandma give me) but definitely only like 1 or 2 times a week. It’s getting to the point where I’m just eating cereal for meals because I’m getting too lazy to cook..

Long story short, if I want to continue enjoying the things I love (like CHIPOTLE and PHO and TERIYAKI and FROYO), I need a JOB TT I’m spending the money that I once spent on clothes, on Dominoes and Ginger Boat and Pho. It’s a worthwhile trade in my opinion (I SERIOUSLY love eating out.. I sound like SUCH a fatty TT) but I’d like to have some spare cash at the end of each month:/

I cannot believe my eyesHow the world’s growing so unwiseAnd it’s plain to seeDarkness...

Sat, 05 May 2012 03:53:40 -0700

I cannot believe my eyes
How the world’s growing so unwise
And it’s plain to see
Darkness inside of me
Is on the rise.

Story of my life..

Fri, 04 May 2012 23:51:18 -0700

Story of my life..

childrenoftrees: nature will always prevail.

Fri, 04 May 2012 14:22:48 -0700

childrenoftrees:

nature will always prevail.

Kirbeelutions!

Wed, 02 May 2012 02:19:24 -0700

Kirbeelutions!

Eeveelutions

Wed, 02 May 2012 02:18:46 -0700

Eeveelutions

cool cat8)

Wed, 02 May 2012 02:18:00 -0700

cool cat8)

tea-and-kittens: Catcake!

Wed, 02 May 2012 02:15:14 -0700

tea-and-kittens:

Catcake!

ticktock

Wed, 02 May 2012 00:41:51 -0700

I hold in mine your subtle gaze
Together in the summer haze
A golden sun and skies so blue
You and me and me and you
A melody so soft and sweet
Our hearts in time as one they beat
One tick two tick three tick for
Our dreams before they shattered.

SIGH.

Fri, 27 Apr 2012 00:28:04 -0700

I feel like I’ve been SIGH-ing a lot lately. I’ve had a lot more work this quarter than I did last quarter. And by “a lot more work,” I mean that I ACTUALLY have work TT. Not to mention I’ve been spending almost all of my free time this week watching anime. Don’t get me wrong, Gunslinger Girl is pretty awesome, but you can only watch so many episodes before you start to tire of it - my limit is about 10… :D. I need something else. My life is getting too boring :/ And that’s BAD for a college student. Just think what my life will be like in 20 years if it’s THIS lame right now TT.

sigh.

I want to matter.

Sat, 21 Apr 2012 23:48:49 -0700