People change. I know that.  But I find myself constantly wishing that some people didn’t. That they would always stay the same. Is that selfish? Of course it is. But finally seeing change in action has put me in my place. I’m not God. I’m barely even human. So who am I to get upset about change?

I’m writing this post as I am frustratedly (and hungrily) waiting for rice to cook TT 

I love eating out. I really do. I mean.. that kinda explains the whole gaining weight thing.. but eating out is EXPENSIVE if you do it more than like once a week. Even then, it definitely takes a toll on my wallet. Ben used to always pay for my meals when we ate out (seriously like 4x a week.. sad I know) so I never REALLY realized how expensive it is to eat out TT I mean, we didn’t always go to somewhere fancy, we at at Chipotle at LEAST twice most weeks (it’s an addiction…….) but a burrito plus a drink plus chips plus guacamole at Chipotle is like $12 D: I still eat out a lot now (thanks to the generous allowance my mom and grandma give me) but definitely only like 1 or 2 times a week. It’s getting to the point where I’m just eating cereal for meals because I’m getting too lazy to cook..

Long story short, if I want to continue enjoying the things I love (like CHIPOTLE and PHO and TERIYAKI and FROYO), I need a JOB TT I’m spending the money that I once spent on clothes, on Dominoes and Ginger Boat and Pho. It’s a worthwhile trade in my opinion (I SERIOUSLY love eating out.. I sound like SUCH a fatty TT) but I’d like to have some spare cash at the end of each month:/

I cannot believe my eyes
How the world’s growing so unwise
And it’s plain to see
Darkness inside of me
Is on the rise.